Evaluation of myself shows self acceptance.

I just can't find any strengths in me but if you do, you can tag me and tell me so.
Fyi, I have been thinking for like 15mins and I still can't think of any strengths I have.
I don't know what is good about me, honestly.

From my point of view,
I am basically good for nothing.
1. I was never once a good daughter of my parents.
In my 18 years of life, I never make them proud for once.
When I was taking my N's,
I thought I did made them proud but they wasn't really happy with my results.
Cause I just merely scraped through it.
On top of that, I am always rebelling and inflicting hurt on them.

2. Yesterday when I was chatting with Zinnia at MSN.
Flashbacks of those days in Bowen just flashed through my mind.
I just thought of one word for myself, SHALLOW.
Perhaps, I have grown and I found myself way immature and shallow back then.
Just being a typical student, I didn't respect the teachers who taught me.
Teachers, they impart knowledge to us.
Instead of thanking them, I was being so immature but to make a fool out of myself during class, shout at them thinking I am oh so right with my lousy attitude towards studies and the list goes on.
Going around the school assuming I am some big fuck making fun of the lower secondary mates.
All of the above just brings out the shallowness in me. ):

3. And
I have weaknesses which are detrimental to my health.
An example would be my hot temper.
When I am irked, I find it incredibly difficult to control my outburst.
My face would usually turned as red as tomato as the blood would rush to my face.
Looking like some mad girl, my voice would bellow at the unfortunate soul who has incurred my wrath.
At times like this clique mates and people who know me well would either just stay away from me or just like me vent everything out and I will just make a fool out of myself.
(Don't ask me how I managed to tolerate Baby's nonsense as just so my girlfriends know both of us are similar in terms of temper and attitude. I think Kelly must be super amazed of how I managed to do that when I am like the princess in the clique way back in Secondary School. The power of love made me tolerate that? Perhaps.)
This hot temper of mine is compounded by the fact that I am very impatient.
People who are slow in reacting to me or in doing things and when things doesn't turn out to be the way I want it to be would set my temper off.
An example would be when Baby doesn't answer my call despite the fact, I bombard his phone with text messages and calls umpteen times. I would get mad but I just dont know why after he get backs to me. I am fine. Seriously, I think I am siao!
Okay. I side tracked already back to the point.

These are some things that I really have to change.

4. I am also terribly lazy!
This doesn't seem strange cause from my O's results it had shown crystal clear that I am one lazy bum!
At home, I am usually lazing around in my room.
Whenever I set an assignment for myself to do, I will keep procrastinate.
If this laziness in me doesn't get its way out of me, I guess, I will never be able to succeed in life.

5. I still have other weakness like I am super fickle minded, I have low self esteem and and I always love to do things at the eleventh hour.

At certain time in life, you need to do some reality checks to make you a better person in life.

Understanding yourself is the first step towards capitalising on your strengths and working to minise your weakness. Don't you agree, too? (:

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