One of my clique mate fav. phrase, Girls are stupid. After all that happened, it is tested and proven that the phrase was oh so true. I guess, I just can't run away from the fact that things between us had changed drastically. I guess, you have given up on me unknowingly. If I were to voice out my unhappiness towards you. You will feel vexed and irritated. So for the sake for keeping our relationship going, I fake a smile and swallow all the awful truth down. Yeah, I know people might say so unhappy than break lah. What is the point of keeping this relationship. And after all that happened, what is the point to salvage this relationship. I dont know why I am choosing this route too. My mind is asking me me to take the another route though it is super painful but my heart wants me to choose this route so badly. That can explain why I am walking this route now. Perhaps, it was me who caused things between us to be like this. Quarreling too often really did make this worst for the both of us. Or should I say make things worst at your side cause you are getting sick and tired of it and your feelings for me are fading. Temptations outside, you can't seem to resist. You have changed and I no longer know you. By looking at those cards you made for me, those things you once did for me, recalling those moments you are faithful and sacrifies your own well being for me, it just gives me strength to hold on. I am staying because I am still in love with you. The old you and I am pine-ing every hope that one day you will be changed back to the old you. I wish I wish.

It takes two hands to clap. Do you still want things between us to work out? Do you still love me? Sigh.

I really don't want both of us to end just like that, I thought we were stronger, I gave you my everything but why things turned out like this, I was never this serious before, Sigh. Sigh.


There's so much more to say, really.
I just can't elaborate further.
Feeling damm bruised and battered by everything.
I just feel like going back to the past, whereby everything between us are just so lovely.
Can we?